Two years ago today, Henry had the hole in his heart fixed.This is us just before they took him into surgery. I love this picture, though I often think I'm smiling too broadly for a mom whose baby is going under the knife. I was nervous and oh, so hopeful too. We thought this was a new beginning for him.
After a week in the hospital, we had two glorious weeks—Henry's golden age. No oxygen, no impending surgery, a fresh start. It just didn't last. But I didn't know that then. Here in this picture, I think the rocky start is about to end. I think things are about to get easy, "normal." I have no idea what is ahead.
Two years ago, today, Henry had the hole in his heart fixed. Two years ago today, my heart was still whole.
I'm smiling in so many of my pictures with Jordan, too, despite everything. Part of me thinks its because I knew (somehow) that pics would be all we'd have, but another part of me lived in hope that I would look back on these days and they wouldn't hurt as much because they'd paid off and our little girl had survived... Funny how things work out.
ReplyDeleteYour smile is one of hope. Despite the risks of surgery you knew this was a chance to fix his problems. I know why you're smiling. I know.
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What a beautiful photo of you and Henry
ReplyDeleteA gorgeous photo and a precious memory.
ReplyDeleteIt's a beautiful photo of the two of you.
ReplyDeleteLovely photo. Thinking of you and your sweet Henry. Peace.
ReplyDeleteI wish I had one photo of me smiling with Hope (when she was on the outside). This is precious.
ReplyDeleteThis is such a great photo, Sara. I think it might be what hope looks like.
ReplyDeleteAnd I'm struck again by how beautiful Henry is.